BRRRRRRRRRRR is all I have to say!!!!!!!

Well okay not all I have to say. This is going to be a quick post…b/c of time.

Tomorrow I will be taking my daughter to meet with her new violin teacher. My daughter is 6 and for the last 2 yrs. now has been asking/talking about playing the violin and how she wants to. I think it’s quite cool!!!!!! My dad used to play the violin when he was younger. He still will pull it out….he did at Christmas so she could see and hear him play. She told her dad that she wanted to play it b/c it’s always been her dream and b/c her grandpa plays it.

Ah well that’s about all the time I have. Dumb time restraints!!!! lol. Hope everyone is doing well!!!!!!!

So I realized that I have yet to blog in this new year! I hope that everyone is doing well so far. I guess I’ll kind of hit on the high points.

-New Year’s Eve….we stayed home. I drank about half a pint of Captain Morgan’s myself. Was quite happy when midnight came around. When I called my friend to wish her a Happy New Year’s she kept laughing at me. I have no clue why!!!!!!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!!

-Football!!!!!! There were so many football games….I was truly in football heaven!!!!! lol. I was amazed that Ohio State’s offense decided to show up! I still rooted for Oregon. Oh well.

-We made it through his 2 week vacation without fighting with each other!!! YAY!

-I got bangs. I decided to go for it. I really wanted to try the Jennifer Aniston style swoopy bangs like she had on Friends…but got talked into something a little different. I loved it the first day….and liked it the 2nd. Now I can’t wait for them to grow out! I have a really hard time figuring out what I want to do with them! And how to do them. PLUS! I have to use hair spray! I DESPISE using hair product in my hair! As my friend says…..it’s only hair and it will grow out!!!!!!!

-Potty training………..for my son. I am so proud of him! He’s getting closer……..on Friday night to Saturday night he stayed dry!!!!! Went potty for the first time out in public 2x! Even though it only lasted for about 24 hrs. I have to be happy for what he did do. (Darn this censoring!!!!!)
-The Princess and The Frog……I went with a friend to see it on Saturday and we took our kids. She’s got 2 kids. The kids loved it! I thought it was a really cute movie!!!!!!!!! I love the New Orleans theme in the movie. Makes me almost want to go down there and try gumbo!!!!!!

-Speaking of New Orleans….The Saints! Think they can do it? I think a Saints/Vikings match up would be cool! lol. As long as the Colts are not there…………..

-In about 3 weeks…..Valentine’s Day weekend, my bestie is coming back to see me! We have a movie date for that weekend!!!! We are going to go see Valentine’s Date….or whatever it’s called. It looks like a cute funny movie.

Okay so I think I hit on the high points. I tried to narrow some of the stuff down that has been in my head. lol.

OOOOH….one final thing. I got a 4.0 in my class. YAY! My next one doesn’t start until March.

Anyways….have a wonderful day!!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxo

Just a quick post to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas!!!!!! If you are travelling, I hope you have safe travels. Hope you get everything…or most everything….you wished for!!!!!

LOL! So now I have moved on from my last post. While I still have those frustrations, feelings, whatever………they’ve been pushed back into the back of my head. I have more important things to focus on like CHRISTMAS! and shopping! I still have not finished up my shopping! I guess I know what I will be out doing next week! haha. (sad thing is it IS what I’ll be doing!)

Last night I made oreo truffles. The recipe is so simple and well they are sooooo yummy!!!!!! I made them for my family Christmas party tomorrow. BUT I have a feeling that I will need to make more today b/c there may not be enough to bring tomorrow!

What do you all hope to get for Christmas? I feel like my “list” is boring….and quite frankly I really didn’t want anything. BUT he needs ideas. So I said a jump drive for my school assignments, new ear phones, and a gift certificate so I can get my hair cut. Totally boring.
Well I hope ya’ll have a wonderful weekend!!!!!!! Hugs.

So today i’m going to attempt to write out a blog that makes sense. I have been wanting to write one out like this for a while…but can’t seem to form the my thoughts quite right. So here it goes!

Life……….lol…….For me my life has consisted of being married for almost 9 years, being a mom for 6 years, and well that seems to be all that it is. Being a mom is the best! I wouldn’t trade my kids for anything or the opportunity to be mom! But I want more. I don’t want to be known as just N’s mom or K’s mom. I also don’t want to be a stay at home mom who seems to be the equivelent of a free maid, childcare, etc………..I guess since June, a lot of things have opened my eyes. I’ve started realizing that my life outside my kids, is not much of a life.

How come it’s always been me to compromise and the one to give innce June we’ve had many conversations. Not easy ones….not fun ones. Eye opening ones for me. Basically I learned that I can do whatever I want……as long as it doesn’t inconvienence him and his plans/wants/or needs.

When we had the conversation about me going back to school, how come I had to ask him 6 times if I would have his support 100%? Then even then I knew the answer when he didn’t answer. (Granted he’d tell you know that he’s fine with me going back to school…but deep down he doesn’t like it.)

I am not blaming him for all of our issues. I know that I have not done things right either.

I gave in too easy….maybe gave up too quickly….didn’t try hard enough….got to the point where it was just comfortable…..it worked for us……too many issues not being discussed…..taken care of.

It makes me sad because before June, I really wouldn’t have thought I’d be sitting here feeling this unhappy….numb feeling really when it comes to my relationship or lack there of with him.

Does it make me a bad person that I don’t want to try? I have given up on this marriage. I’ve been told that I need to keep trying. But when do you say enough’s enough? Especially when the other person won’t try.

I try not to blog about my personal problems……..and i have no clue if anyone will read this.

(Oh one thing I have learned…or relearned about myself….I am a strong person…and I can and will be fine if something happens. I just keep telling myself this.)